Category: J Douglas Bottorff

Your Intuitive Compass

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Have you ever said, “I should have listened to myself?” You were faced with a decision. Everything seemed fine, but a nagging feeling lingered that something wasn’t quite right. You pushed the feeling aside, dismissing it as needless worry only to regret it later.

You have also had the opposite experience of saying, “I’m glad I listened to myself!” Again, faced with a decision, others said one thing, but you felt another, and you listened to yourself.

We all grapple with the conflict between head and heart, or, spiritually speaking, intellect and intuition. In her book, Lessons in Truth, Emilie Cady writes, “Intuition and intellect are meant to travel together, intuition always holding the reins to guide intellect.” We are culturally programed to do just the opposite. Facts, not feelings, should be our guiding criteria.

And yet, we want to distinguish between intuition and feelings, especially emotion. We’re familiar with the phrase, blinded by love. We can relate to the disillusioned bride who says of her ex, “I took him for better or for worse, but he was a lot worse than I took him for.”

At its deepest level, intuition is the still small voice of the soul. It’s that inner awareness that understands we desire more because we are more. No decision, however regrettable, will diminish our soul. This understanding empowers us to live free of the fear of making wrong choices. After all, feelings of hesitation can just as easily be driven by the need to protect a weakness rather than evolve a strength.

We come to a fork in the road. We want what is best for ourselves and others. Do we turn right, or do we turn left? First, we affirm that either way will reveal something important to us. If we are protecting some weakness, we will discover it, and if we’re ready, we can correct it. If we are evolving a strength, we will know that as well. The intellect says we must always make the right choice. The intuition, holding the reins to guide the intellect, reminds us that even a wrong choice can lead to deeper understanding.     

The Anatomy of a Miracle

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When you think of a miracle, do you envision an extraordinary occurrence that is some form of divine intervention transcending the laws of nature? Isn’t this one of the first things that comes to mind when we think of Jesus as a miracle worker?

In my ministerial training, we learned of a system known as the five M’s of a developing religious movement. As it applies to Christianity, these five M’s include the Man Jesus, the Message he brought, the nature of his Ministry, the Movement that developed after his death, and the Monument, those many forms of Catholic and Protestant Christianity we know today. The image of Jesus the miracle worker is the product, not of meticulous biographical research, but of the Movement that followed his death.

It is quite possible that many of the miracle stories we read had their beginning, not as an event, but as a parable. We know that Jesus taught truth using fiction, with the parable of the prodigal son being a prime example. Through four decades of the fluid process of oral tradition, parables of Jesus could easily transform into stories about Jesus. 

Many of the miracle stories include a common formula. A need is stated. Jesus challenges people to stop judging by appearances. Those stifled by the apparent problem agree to at least try to change their mind. Jesus speaks a command or orders some action, and the answer is forthcoming.

It appears that the catalyst for change involves a change of mind, a redirection of faith. As we think of our own experience, can we accept the challenge of refusing to judge a situation by its appearance? Can we change the focus of our faith? Can we, like the father of the epileptic boy, believe that with God all things are possible?

Like a river, the creative life force flows in but one direction: from the inside out. Jesus told people to cleanse the inside of the cup first. That is, focus your faith, envision the highest, most successful outcome. Hold this direction knowing that you are cooperating, not with some miracle-working cosmic force, but with the natural flow of God. As within, so without. Don’t expect a miracle. Expect the best and highest outcome for yourself and all involved. Your solution may look like a miracle, but it is the natural outworking of this cosmic river flowing from the inside out.

Embracing the Divine Masculine

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For Mother’s Day we focused on the Divine Feminine, so it is good that we consider the Divine Masculine this Father’s Day.

As a reminder, with masculine and feminine references to spiritual concepts, we’re not talking about gender. We’re talking about the functions of mind. We associate the intuition with the feminine and the intellect with the masculine aspects of our being. I think of our intuition as the inlet to God and the intellect as the outlet. It is our primary interactive faculty with the material realm.

It’s probably fair to say that most people spend the lion’s share of their time engaged in intellectual activities. By this I don’t mean we’re drawn to doing crossword puzzles or spending our time working out math problems. I mean we devote a great deal of our attention to the world of the senses. When Emilie Cady said the intellect and intuition are meant to travel together, but with the intuition leading the way, she was reminding her reader of the importance of remembering our larger connection with God.

Imagine standing in the open, front door of your home. You are facing inside the house where you live. To your back, a vast world opens up. If you spend all your time inside the house, your life will get smaller and smaller. Your view of the world is that which you see through the windows. It’s important to get outside and retain your connection to the larger world. Doing so inspires new ideas and a greater appreciation for your home.

The intellect allows us to translate spiritual inspiration into books, music, cinema, art, acts of love, and reminders to others that we’re thinking of them. It is our ability to give form to intuitive feelings that have no form and would not otherwise be conveyed. For me, writing on spiritual subjects is a therapeutic exercise of capturing, as in a literary photograph, insights that I can hang on the walls of my house; reminders that on the other side of that front door there is a very large world.

The intellect without the intuition can become a house with the drapes drawn and the doors shut. The intellect can also throw open the doors and pull back the curtains to let in that intuitive light of God ready to illuminate our world.

The Spirit-Soul Connection

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Spirit and soul are words we use to describe spiritual abstractions. Both are very real, but we do not experience them through the five senses. We know them intuitively. Jesus defined God as spirit, comparing it to the wind whose effects we see, while the wind itself is invisible. He said we must worship God in spirit, which I understand as the meditative practice of stilling the intellect and opening intuitively to our spiritual source.

Spirit is universal life, love, power, and intelligence. Soul is an individualization of this universal energy, but capable of interfacing with the material world. Our consciousness is the idea-forming mechanism that enables us to interact with the world. The body, existing within time and space, is the center of most people’s identity. Our spiritual essence, our soul, is not bound or defined by time and space, but our consciousness is. When a person momentarily steps from their body, as in a near-death experience, they instantly rise out of the body-based consciousness and experience the vastness of their soul and their oneness with universal Spirit.

A metaphor I find helpful is that of the sponge in the ocean. Think of the ocean water within the sponge as the soul of the sponge. When the sponge refers to itself as “I”, it is referring to this volume of water rather than the physical sponge. Imagine squeezing out the water and tossing the sponge onto the beach. The water you squeezed out remains in the ocean and keeps its individual identity. But now it lacks a body. It is a point of consciousness fully aware of itself and its oneness with the sustaining source, the ocean. If it wishes to be seen and felt in the visible world, it must take on another sponge body.

The “I” that we are is not the body. We have a body. If we were to step out of the body, we would continue to use this personal pronoun. Describing our experience to another, we would say, “I went through a tunnel.” “I communicated with deceased relatives.” “I found myself in the middle of a beautiful meadow.” This “I” is the soul. The all-sustaining life force in which we live is Spirit, Source, God, or whatever name we wish to give it.

Are You Saved?

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This subject is prompted by a couple of contacts I’ve had over the last few weeks. One came through YouTube comments correcting all of my errors concerning the end times. The other was a phone call from a concerned woman from Arizona who discovered the church website and felt the need to bring me into alignment with the Bible, at least as she understood it. I love responding to those who are genuinely interested in what we teach. The moment I discover the questions are being used as a setup for answers they already have, the conversation ends.

Why would someone bother to reach out to a complete stranger, especially a minister, and begin questioning their religious beliefs? Their intentions are good, for they’ve been taught that a soul on the wrong religious track is a soul in danger of eternal damnation. However, the thought of spending an eternity surrounded by a bunch of self-righteous Bible thumpers isn’t exactly my idea of a heavenly reward.

Fear, guilt, and shame represent the holy trinity of controlling features incorporated in our religious upbringing. The sin and punishment model has been put forward for so long and from such authority that many accept it as a given. On one hand we’re told that God is love, and the grace of God is our hope. On the other hand, as my caller suggested, those who do not walk in accordance with the Word of God will find that things do not work out so well in the long run.

Somewhere in the middle of Kansas there is a billboard that asks this question: “If you died today, where would you spend eternity?”

It’s a great question worth serious consideration, and a drive through Kansas certainly offers ample time to think about it. Those asking the question assume there are but two answers. You know you are making spiritual progress when you reserve the right to consider alternatives. As for me, I’ll be here, in the presence of God, just like I have always been. I don’t think God would have it any other way.

Lifting the Veil

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With Memorial Day coming up, our thoughts turn to those who gave their lives in service to our country, from military to our first responders. Many of us who haven’t lost loved ones in the line of duty will remember those we have lost in other ways, and we will think of them as continuing on their unique path.

While we continue to associate death with pain and sorrow, we are slowly opening our collective consciousness to the ongoing nature of life. From this earthly perspective, we see death as an end. We are learning from those who have momentarily lifted this veil that there is no end. There is change, but there is no death. When a loved one steps from our life, we suffer the pain of shock and loss. I had experienced this with pets and with grandparents. But the loss of our son, and then my mother, revealed a whole different level of loss.

The grieving period is a time of readjustment. Hopefully we gradually move from what we lost to what we gained through our relationship. When I think of Ashley and my mother, I do not think of them as dead. I wonder what they might be experiencing in their new life. This is not simply an attempt to help myself feel better; it is grounded in the understanding that they continue to live.  

Many NDE’rs express surprise when they realize they are technically dead. The surprise comes from the fact that they are still very much alive. They only know something has changed because no one can hear them explain that they are perfectly fine, and everybody should calm down. One universal take-away from their experience is the loss of the fear of death. While the average person may think death is the worst thing that could happen, the typical NDE’er will insist that their brush with death was the best thing that ever happened to them. The loss of the fear of death seems to spark a new enthusiasm for living life.  

My interest in the NDE is not an obsession with death. As I have said many times, I see this emerging body of information as a window into the soul. I do not think there is a remedy for our feeling of loss. I do think the more willing we become to lift the veil of this thing we call death, the better we understand this other thing we call life.

Are We in the End Times?

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A member of our YouTube audience posted this comment: “I hear so many Christians say, ‘we’re in the end times’. What does that mean?”

Eschatology is the fancy name given to the study of the so-called end times. The book of Revelation appeared when early Christians suffered under severe persecution from the Roman empire. The book’s intended purpose was to encourage Christians to hold fast, Jesus was coming soon. Following the legalization of Christianity, Revelation fell out of use for hundreds of years. It was during the Middle Ages that interest in the book reignited, but without its historical context. Since that time, doomsdayers have exploited the mysterious imagery as signs that the end was near.   

Of course, there are many ways that human civilization could end. The eruption of a super volcano, an incoming asteroid, a major solar flare, or nuclear war could all do the trick. We can also study the downfall of the once-great world powers of Rome, Greece, and Egypt and see implosion from within as another option.    

One takeaway we can glean from observing this obsession with the so-called end times is that we can fall into the same trap on a personal level. In our challenging moments, we can turn from God within to the belief that we need an external savior. The most effective starting point is to reestablish our expectation in our true center of power—God within. Once we do this, once we rise above the fear of some impending doom, we can move through our challenge from the peace of strength.

In the non-canonical Gospel of Thomas, the disciples asked Jesus when their end would be. He said,

“Since you have discovered the beginning, why do you seek the end? For where the beginning is, there will the end be. Blessed is he who shall stand at the beginning, and he shall know the end, and shall not taste death.”

The advice is to be here now. Obsession over the end prevents us from engaging in a new beginning. The transforming power we long for is always with us. Be still and know this power, and you will find your way through any challenge.

Embracing the Divine Feminine

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Much of our thinking about God is influenced by the masculine, Judeo-Christian image. Attempts are made to counter this with the notion of God as Father/Mother. While this is an appropriate exercise in stretching our thinking, we do best to think of God as one power expressing as masculine and feminine energies. We might think of it as a magnet. Two poles, one negative and one positive, make the magnet what it is.

When we think of our own mind, we understand we have intellectual and intuitive faculties. The intellect is the fact-processing aspect that helps us do our shopping and balance our checkbook. We use it to navigate the world of external appearances. The intuitive side opens to our spiritual source. The practice of meditation is the releasing of the dominating intellect and opening to intuitively received spiritual impulses.

If you observe the workings of your own mind, you will notice how the intellect keeps an audio/video program running all the time. We’re thinking about the past, anticipating the future, making shopping choices, wondering how long we’ll have to wait in line at the grocery store, or trying to remember where we laid our car keys. To embrace the divine feminine is to bring this mental movie to a halt and settle into a receptive state of being. We turn from external concerns, and we open to the subtle energy of spirit that is the living source of our being. Our habit of chasing the intellectual movie lines makes being still and listening a challenge. With practice, however, we can learn to relax and pick up on intuitive promptings that will surely come.

What is the value of doing this? It lifts us out of the incessant chatter of the surface mind and reveals a much broader state of being. The broader our horizons, the more relaxed and creative we become. We’re more receptive to the presence of God as our guiding, healing, prospering source.

Embracing your divine feminine is opening yourself to the wholeness that you are. Bless the wonderful tool that is the masculine intellect and give thanks for the broader vision that is made known by embracing the divine feminine that is your intuitive side.  

Predestination: Fact or Fiction?

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The debate between predestination and freewill has gone on for centuries. Since we can find support for either idea, I think it is best to reframe the issue beginning with our understanding of God. Seeing God, not as the powerful, humanlike creator, but as the creative life force animating all of creation, predestination would hinder the natural creative process. Though the exercise of freewill yields both positive and negative results, it factors in the influence of each person’s belief system and explains the diversity in human expression. It allows us to challenge the feeling that we are powerless to rise above our current lot in life.

I think we can resolve this debate by seeing predestination and freewill as natural aspects of the human condition. Our complete soul is a predestined condition. We can exercise our freewill to stray away from this divine ideal and create a body-based self-image so far from what we are in truth that suffering is inevitable. This is illustrated in the parable of the prodigal son. The son asks for his inheritance and the father gives it to him, no questions asked. He just says, “Here you are. Go for it.” This is freewill. However, by virtue of the son’s relationship with his father, the option to return home is predestined. There is nothing negative about it. We are all predestined to our spiritual homecoming.  

The exercise of freewill is most productive when it harmonizes with the true nature of the soul. This is illustrated in the son’s decision to return home. However, our excursions into the far country teach us the value of our true home. In this sense, the exercise of freewill with negative results can ultimately lead to our most productive and meaningful spiritual path.

Must we suffer before we find this path? No. But while our negative choices may lead to negatively painful results, all choices ultimately lead to home. In this sense, there are no wrong decisions.

The act of incarnating in a body has created the temptation to believe in two powers of spirit and materialism. It is easy to forget that our true home is spirit. Because this is true, we are all destined to return to this awareness. And if we take the more scenic route home, we’ll still get there all the same.   

From Belief to Knowing

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Imagine a bowl of water on the table. Your friend tells you the water is ice cold, and you believe it. Then, you decide to check it for yourself. You put your hand in the water and discover it is very warm. With this simple illustration, you have transitioned from belief to knowing.

When we read the statement of faith of any religious organization, we are reading a list of beliefs that have been worked out by the forefathers. The Apostle’s Creed, for example, starts with, “I believe …” and it lists a series of statements the believer is expected to accept as true. What happens when a person decides to question these beliefs and actually put their hand in the water? They will, in that instant, begin rewriting their own statement, shifting from I believe to I know.

Evelyn Underhill, in her classic work, Mysticism, highlights the mystic’s defining characteristic as experiencing “… a conscious relation with the Absolute.” They do not merely believe in God; they put their hand in the water. They know God as a living presence.

In many cases, such people find themselves at odds with religious powers. Madame Guyon, the very popular, seventh-century French mystic and writer, was for seven years imprisoned by the Church for her experiential approach to God. Read her book, A Short and Easy Method of Prayer, and you will think it rolled off the Unity press.

Meister Eckhart, the thirteenth-century German mystic whose writings remain widely quoted by today’s New Thought community, was condemned as a heretic by the Church, and his writings banned. He and others like him dared to share not their beliefs, but their direct knowledge of the nature of God.

We’re also told that Jesus “… taught them as one who had authority, and not as their scribes” (Matthew 7:29). He had the nerve to put his hand in the bowl of water.  

Because most of us were introduced to spiritual matters through established belief systems, we may feel a little uncomfortable putting our own hand in the bowl. We may feel even more uncomfortable saying what we’ve discovered. But if our spiritual journey is to mean anything, then we must be willing to transition from belief to knowing.